These are from July 2010

TURNING POINTS


Not knowing how to give up -
strength
kindness
fight the negativity.

Keep the dream alive -
pay attention
follow them.

Never forget your lessons learned -
find the positive in every situation
turn it around.

Remember the love -
the feeling
the energy
life blood.

Life - Love - Loss - Rebirth -
choices, always positive
walk on
long journey.




YOU

I am here without you now
at times pain is unbearable
sometimes I don't feel a thing
As the years go by I smile more
better memories
happiness, laughter

Appreciation
your guidance
you led me into my life
taught me to love
and then were gone

Truth
see it all around me
beautiful day
happy dogs
singing birds

Time
plays with me
speeds up in realization
slows in healing
is always passing



STORMS

The storm clouds move in
first grey then dark
dark as midnight
turbulent - rumbling -fighting
tightness, breathe

Passing thunder, loud, raucous
electrifying - lightning strikes
hits the core, pain

Passing storm - farther away
becoming quiet
breathe

cleansing - washing the past
more bearable
acceptance
peace


DREAM EMOTIONS

pain proves life and love
letting it go is the result of growth
re-emergence is a lesson to be learned
peace is the goal
happiness is a result
love is a bonus
when I think of you I feel all of this.

Journey - beginning to end

True giving is without parameters
True offerings are made with love
No expectations
No judgements
To be selfish is to put people down
To tie them up to be what you want them to be
To be selfless is to be accepting, non judgemental
This is something we all should strive to achieve in our life
Some will get farther then others
Some will completely understand
Some will not even scratch the surface
but the saddest are
The ones who at the end of their lives realize that they veered too
far off track and now long for a second go around
It starts at birth - it is a life long journey we all take.

Past the Heart

To feel so deeply it pass your heart
The feeling over takes every cell
Not always sadness
Joy is there
love-trust-honesty-devotion
Sometimes gut wrenching
Sometimes settled
It makes you who you are
Laughter, pure joy, happiness in that moment
Tears, sadness, frighten, letting it out, trying to let it go
Emotions - some say they are bad
Others show them out right
Those who hide them - explode with anger and venom
Let yourself laugh, cry and feel
Go past your heart
Live life

Letting Go

What was to be
Now is not
Dreams come and go
Replace wants with needs
Ever changing
Constant motion
Thoughts of the next step
Plan - execute
Misfire
Let go
Try again
New direction
No failure
Wasn't meant to be
Leaves room for what is
New beginnings
Fresh start
Love those in your life
Live

waking

Becoming real
living life
not existing
Seeing everything
living it
smell, feel, taste
All seems new, alive, vibrant
feels like I've been sleeping for so long
many lost years
years of discovery
strength, intelligence,capable
I love deeply
I forgive
I can still smile, laugh and see the world again....

Wanting

Is it healthy to want something so much that you constantly think about it?
I have found the best course of action is to think about it - get the details done - then let it go.
Let the world have it.
If it is to be yours - to truly live it - it will come back to you - it will be grander than you could have ever imagined.
If it doesn't come to you - there is a reason - something better on the horizon perhaps. Not a good fit - saving yourself hardship and pain.
There are reasons beyond us that things happen.
This is true for all - everywhere.
We must learn to look beyond.

Shadows

If you look down you will see my shadow
Guiding you from above
Hold your head up
Look straight into the future
Feel your strength
Reach deep inside - its there
A quiet war is waged
ongoing
See the future
Look at the horizon
There you are
Beautiful, strong, at peace